A bit of a weird title but the first that came to mind when I decided to write on this topic…
Recently God revealed to me that I have trust issues, especially when it come to our relationship. It all started on a faithful Saturday afternoon where I had decided to reduce my ever-growing mound of laundry by actually washing it. Trying to be an obedient student, I asked God to direct me as to when he thinks the best time for me to use the laundry machines would be (bearing in mind that I’m currently in a position where I have to share the laundry space with various other people); he directed me to go later which was a struggle for me because I personally wanted to go as soon as possible, but trying to be an obedient student, I went later and I thank God I did. Firstly, I found out that if I had gone when I had wanted to, I would have found that there were no washing machines available- wasting my own time. Secondly, I would have found that my laundry app was down also meaning that I wouldn’t have been able to do my laundry the conventional way anyways. All in all, I thank God for enabling me to listen to his voice and recognise it.
However, this day taught me many lessons about myself and my relationship with God. And I want to pose these questions to us today. When God speaks are you afraid to hear His answer? I found this to be the primary reason in my relationship with God for distrust. When God spoke, I was afraid to hear what He said because I was afraid that it would be against what I wanted, and I wanted to hide behind the reasoning that if I asked and didn’t hear then I couldn’t be held accountable which was a ridiculously silly idea. I came to learn and believe that God would never lead me astray and that his no is a saving grace. God knows what’s ahead of me and His no is a blessing in disguise because I would never want to venture where God has not led me.
I’m encouraging us all today to trust God, I am also working on the same. The future is uncertain, and we cannot control everything that happens to us or comes our way, in fact, it’s impossible to do so. Instead, let us not be afraid of the will of God. Let us truss in Him and leave our lives in His hands, knowing that He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly more than we could ever ask or think. And may this be a comfort to us.